She..

 

She walks with a million dollar smile,
She laughs without a reason everytime,
The world thinks she's addicted to drugs,
But its only her dreams for which she lives.
She talks to stars when world sleeps,
She weave the words on paper when her lips fails, 

She embrace the light from brim of faith,
When the darkness embrace her world in grey.
She skates on thin ice,
She works at snails pace,
She carefully moulds her steps,
Only to start a new beginning and get perfect ending. 

Existence in question

The stillness haunts me everynight,
The inner screams tears me apart,
Unwillingly my eyes become moist,
The sadness overshadow my smiles,
leading the question to my existence.
All day long there's a hollow feeling inside,
Even if i laugh,Am i happy?
I really can't decide.
The knife makes me think of slitting my wrist,
Getting rid of this irritating life,
But the memory of the day when i was going to do this,
The concern of my mother on that day scolds me ,
Her love,her believe,her affection

Made me sworn to never end my life this.
The helplessness to stop the unwanted thoughts,
leads to the restlessnesses,
Consumes the every littleness of joy from within,
Turns the faith into nothingness.
I collapse and close my eyes,
Plugging the earphones with music too loud,
Though the loudness of songs overshadow the inner screams,
But the unwanted train of thoughts never leaves.

My first award xD

I've been awarded for the very first time by anoop :)

Thanks a lot for it :)

here's my award -----

 Rules for the award :

- List five current obsessions.
- Pass the award on to five more fabulous blogs.
- On your post of receiving this award, make sure you include the person that gave you the award and link it back to them.
- When you post your five winners, make sure you link them as well.
- Don’t forget to let your winners know they won an award from you by leaving a comment on their blog.

 5 things i am obsessed about :

1.My cellphone-texting is my all time favourite work xD

2. Music-i am kinda addicted to it xD

3.Novels-best for time pass xD

4.Poems :)

5.My computer ;)

I would like to pass this award to :





















Ambika,Akshat,pandora,jalpari, and phoenix

Essence of loneliness..

 I don't want the lavished cars to travel in,
I want no stars in my hands.
I don't want all happiness of world for me,
I want no place among the celebrities.
I barely want all to care for me,
I got no desire of being the richest.
Stability is what all i want,
Serenity is what i wish for.
Chaos leads question to my sanity,
 melancholy engulfs me gently.
Rejected by all,
Subjected to death.

Darkness is what i am,
Light is what i signify.
I am headed towards the zenith,
With the numerous hopes and faith.
I will laugh loudly all the way,
Even if my smile would be broken.

Silently pray to be blessed..

The drops of rain seems so soothing,

The chirping of birds is just amazing,

Just see the morning at five,

Its just an awesome view.

Like the endless sky is only limit for eagles,

Like there are no boundaries for fishes to swim,

Like the mountains got endless heights,

I too silently wish to be blessed....

Tired of saying i am perfectly imperfect,

Tired of screwing everything in one way or another,

Isn't there a way i too could fly away?

The world is an illusion,

Leading to confusions,

The people are fake,

They circle around fame with so many faces,

They pretend to be what they are not,

They pretend to care when inside they curse,

They cook up one's story on their own,

Unaware of  the misery he o' she suffers.

Suffering the pain of  being not understood,

Bearing the irritation of being misunderstood,

Stuck in mid of everything,

Travelling in train of thoughts,

Under the dark clouds,

Every night i silently pray to be blessed...

friends..

A friend is the one who holds your hand when everyone is against you,giving you the most hilarious consolation,though knows its lame but good enough to bring back the lost smile for a while.  ^ . ^ 

They who know who i am,

They know the problems i've been dealt,                      

They promise to stay for long,

They are the ones i care for.

They know my weakness,

They know my strengths,

They take me as what i am,

They are the best part of me,

They are my friends. :)

Even though they are far away,they are always remembered,loved and cared..

I miss them,i feel lonely sometimes.... *sigh* !

 

The lady in blue..

There is a storm in her heart,

It rains through her eyes.

The silent lips of her,

Tells the worst she had suffered.

Its not you,its not i,

Its the lady who is in blue.

Her pale face has the divine beauty,

But unfortunately she couldn't be any queen.

She sells the roses at railway crossing,

Just to survive another day.

She gives the roses and keep the thorns,

But can't live like me o' you.

we got the luxuries,we got the comfort,

I wish someday she could get the same too.

If i die today..

If i die today,

will anyone cry?

If i die today,

will anyone pray?

If i die today,

will anyone never sleep at night?

If i die today,

will everyone ever hold a smile?

If i die today,

the sun would set and rise as the way it do.

If i die today,

for only few days there'll be gloom.

If i die today,

the beauty of nature will remain the same.

If i die today,

everything will get fix one day again.

The best thrill ever..!!

when its YOU v/s YOU :D 

Its confusing, irritating and stupid, 

But its the biggest battle fought on earth ever..!! :S

I love swings :)

The joy of NOTHING

The jumping

The skipping

I realized those sweet nothings

Actually meant everything :( 

I miss my childhood.

Nothing last forever,neither happiness nor sadness...both keep supporting each other like the best of buddies ^_^

what does my birthday says about me? xD

Facebook is a last place to kill the time,the quizzes are the best part of it.though all doesn't give accurate answers,but somewhere down the lane,they are quite nearer to it.

one among those is what does my birthday says about me,it somehow matches to my personality..

According to it :

July born is Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking >:D<

The ANGEL in you,make you love yourself.

The DEVIL in you guard you.Both together,make you your GUARDIAN ANGEL :)