The call

Love comes and goes, in form of different people in about every phase of life.We learn to move on, learn to survive.Falling in love is not something you decide on, but she did everything that she could to stay away from it. The minute she found herself leaning towards it, She backed out.With relationship comes the bizarre expectations.If he loves you, he would always tell you the truth. But to tell you his fears, he needs to trust you beyond love.

Dear someone,
You asked her if she hates you after all this time so here is her answer.No, Hatred is something which doesn't exist in her dictionary.You both have decided to walk away to different paths and It's the decision based on mutual understanding.Isn't it enough to end it on a good note?Why there is a need to create an extra dose of burden to let the peace scream aloud in pain and create the unnecessary complications.Let's not give space to the philosophies to crumble, You've been there and she's glad your existence happened.The good times will be remembered always.She respect you for giving her personal space and dealing with her values.Who on earth won't appreciate the fact that they were not asked to change but the changes which automatically followed changed them for better always?And of course the chain of false promises weren't there to dig up a hole for madness, Things have been crystal clear so there is no question of playing the blame game.After all this time how can she hate you?
She's looking forward to better things but at times the best thing one can do when they find love again, is to walk away.The pride of being a leo is playing a role here.Let the years pass and time decide with whom the perfectly designed rings are meant to be exchanged.

The butterfly effect - part 5 (The end)

"Oh ok..By the way I'm still waiting for my chhillo.." Amy dramatically put head in her hands.
"Chhillo?oh you mean Mochachillo...I'm sorry..you had to wait" he laughed.
"Wait a minute..excuse me..one Mochachillo and Cappuccino please...yeah...nothing else..thank you"
Taking a separate table won't be a great idea.It might be rude as well..but what if she feel I'm disturbing her?Err.His mind started struggling with unnecessary thoughts..
"Please join us..Nobody has given you punishment here" , Sumedha smiled and said.
"You haven't changed in all these years..Still expert in passing comments." he took a seat.
"Yeah somethings are best to be left unchanged."
"How are you,what are you upto these days?"
"Absolutely fine.I'm working as a fashion designer...what about you?"
"Superb!Finally you made it..Glad to know...I'm software engineer after a hectic journey."
"By the way,Great tattoo.When did you get it done?"
"Thanks.Its almost one and half year."
 "Oh i see,Beautiful it is."
Waiter served their order..
He pierced the brittle shell of her self defense.Did he ask it purposely?she wondered...It reminded her about the day when she told him once she want to get her wrist inked with a heart..their initials written in it..i.e PS and he explained why she should get butterflies instead of heart.They had a long one hour conversation debating on that..which finally ended on a note that she'll go for butterflies because it suits not only her but both of them.She was done with her tea and realized that she was getting late for an important meeting.She must leave.
"I'm sorry I need to go.There's an important meeting actually.."
 "No problem..Look after yourself and stay in touch...."
"Sure.see you around."
"Would you mind giving your number?" It wasn't planned..just out of nowhere,all of sudden words just flowed.
"Err..okay."
They exchanged numbers and she left.

Days passed and there was no call,message or missed call.

On one fine evening,he managed to gather the courage and dialed her number.His fingers tightened on the cell phone when the most beautiful voice said "hello".He expected that she won't pick up his call But she did..he thanked lord under his breathe.
"Hi.Please carefully listen to what i want to say...Its been  5 years and today is the same date we said good bye to each other.You were clever enough to hide well and I couldn't find you despite of all the possible trials.Seemed like you already moved on.I knew it was my fault that i let you go so easily..But believe me,I haven't been able to lead a meaningful life either.At first i thought it is all fine but later i realized it left an everlasting effect.My thoughts still rush towards picture of you which is engraved in my heart.I got serious in life so that i can be with you.I started saving...so that whenever we are together again i can have enough to fulfill your needs...I quit smoking so that I can spend my entire life with you..After you left my company changed..I changed for better but my life became worse.."Those 'I LOVE YOU' which once i started thinking were matter of daily routine and force..I began to miss it every time....His voice started shattering...Not that i didn't try to move on..I did..But nothing worked...Now when my family is looking for a match for me,I want to introduce you to them...So that We can be together again,Only if you forgive me."
There was a long pause...she put her hands over her eyes,childish gesture,tears trickle from under her drooping lashes.
Pin drop silence on both sides.
"You think it just happened to you..I had gone through the same pain.I removed all the traces because i thought that's what you wanted..I crave to listen to your insane talks almost every now and then.I try to move on but at the end everything brings me home,brings me to you...I often blame myself for trying to change you which lead to the disaster but i swear i just alarmed you by regular warnings because i didn't want to see you in any trouble..I'm soo..rry.I want to spend my rest of my life with you too."

Ten year later..

They are one of the most beautiful and responsible married couple...he still love her with the same intensity ...she still don't let him spend much on her Rather make him richer with her brightest smile each day.

The butterfly effect- part 4

The Intensity of fear slackened but it was just a postponement and she sat frozen watching him with dilated pupil from the corner of her eye as he passed by her side while moving towards Amy.
"Dada,You were on phone and i was getting bored so i came here to see didi's tattoo.She has butterfly on her wrist,How cool is it na?" she pointed towards sumedha's tattoo.
His smile flickered when he saw sumedha.Her white skin and hazel eyes perfectly suited her brown blunt cut hairs.He stared her blankly while the words started floating in his mind like stones crashing through layers of understanding the fact that they can't be together again.The struggle which held both of them for years and the pain which they suffered couldn't be described.
"Hello,Sumedha" he said.
She looked back at him but not quite meeting his eyes.."Hi" she smiled.
It broke the silence which seemed to have lasted from decades.Few minutes almost felt like ages.It was as if the cold disappeared for sometime.
 "Do you know her?how?" Amy interrupted with curiosity.
"Well were friends in school"
"You mean she is your childhood friend?"
"Yes.You got it right.We were childhood friends" He smiled.

To be continued..

Image courtesy : Google.



 

The butterfly effect- part 3

"Amy,shall i order some grilled sandwiches or coffee for you?"
"Naah,dada will be here any minute.He's on phone."
"Thank you" she said to waiter and he left.
"Oh i see.You are here with your brother?"

"Yeah my cousin.Pranav bhaiya is with us to spend his vacations.It is so much fun you know."
Pranav...the name brought back sudden piercing flood of memories.May be you heard it wrong or he must be someone else..There are lot of people who have same name..And he just can't be here.It's almost 5 years and now he's not going to return..she reminded herself and took a sip of her lemon iced tea.
"Here you are and I'm looking for you everywhere Amy.You are such a naughty kid.What are you doing here" , He said and the deep icy voice was exactly the same,although she hadn't heard it for five years.she only had half of her attention on him.Her mind whirled in a fog of confusion.She felt a hard knot of terror in her throat.She couldn't see him because she was in opposite direction and he was standing right behind her.


To be continued...


P.s. : I'm extremely sorry for posting it so late but blame my dead computer and retard internet connection.

The butterfly effect -part 2

The chair in front of her moved and a little stranger took her place.
"Is it a butterfly on your hand?" she touched the tattoo inked on her wrist."please show..show.."she insisted.

"Yeah,you liked it?" she smiled and asked.
"It is awesome..Please tell my dad to get this done on my hand too.It is so colorful."
"Haha but do you know the pain is unbearable."
"I'm a strong girl you know.I can make my neighbor weep but still i think i might want to have butterfly on my hand when I'll turn 12.I'm in no hurry.Please tell dad to allow me and don't tell him it hurts,he can't see me in pain." she smiled.
"Cool!so when are you turning 12?Your dad loves you a lot."
"Ya he do but i love him more than he love me.My birthday is on 21st feb and I'll be 12 after 3 long years" she flashed her white teeth.
"Lovely!whats your name?" she asked.
"Amy sen and whats yours?"
"Sumedha.." .... at the same moment, the waiter served her order of lemon iced tea.


To be continued...

 Image courtesy : Google Baba :D


 

The butterfly effect -part 1

"ugh! this sucks.." she thought to herself, "isn't there a place here, where you can sit, without being probed at like, that's-a-disturbed-girl sitting, all by herself"...well, no there isn't. At least not in this place. She chose Cafe Coffee Day.
"Err why they always have to put up sitting arrangements for two or four..what if a person want to sit alone?"

"One lemon iced tea please",she ordered..
"Anything else ma'am?"
"No thank you."
"It will take 5 minutes ma'am." , The guy added smile and left.
She sat quietly,staring the phone flashing 11 missed calls..waiting for the tea she ordered.no matter wherever you go,technology never fails to say "I'm always there."As she sat there..she saw several people...some waiting for someone,some friends,one trying to explain other why he want break up,one trying to make other understand why he loves her so much,one newly married couple..one family with a baby sitting on table trying to mess with the sandwiches and coke.
She was alone but she liked it that way..she had all her time...avoiding all the questions she didn't wish to answer,all the questions she didn't wish to hear,all the questions she wanted to leave and move on..avoiding all the questions..

To be continued...

May be deep inside she just want to be alone

The music was aloud and the room was filled with the high spirits , everyone was dancing on the floor enjoying the ample amount of smoke and alcohol.The wall was filled with colorful hand prints of the youngsters.There were little blue and red lights, making a mysteriously bright atmosphere.It wasn't like kim was there for the first time.In fact it was something which was now a part of her life,The one thing that completed her day.But today wasn't one among those days when she was in mood to party,dancing has always been her passion though.Million stories in seven days.plethora of  things  were going into her grain sized brain.Despite of numerous attempts to settle down in the surrounding ,she faced continuous failures.She sneaked out from there and started  to walk slowly on the city street,after a while without giving any second thought she sat on the side of road trying to collect her scattered thoughts at one place,taking control from filthy chit chatter and sack a shit people. This is she  trying to take back control of her life once again but may be deep inside she just want to be alone this time.

 

Rambling of an insomniac

"Peter"
No answer.
"Peter"
No answer
It was already midnight and ann couldn't see her ten year old brother peter anywhere.by now tears had blurred her vision.all of a sudden something stroked her mind,she started to run faster towards the basement which leaded a way to a small garage.she twisted her ankle,and fell on ground infinite times,yet stood up every time and tried her best to reach there as soon as possible.she went to the open door ..calling for him again.. "peter" ..shaking with fear and sorrow ,she crashed down and bowed her head.
After long silence she heard the voice of the one she needed at that moment,the most beautiful voice.she looked up through her eyes filled with tears.she saw peter sitting on an old and rough tyre..
"Ann" he said softly.
Tears still falling from her eyes..she got up and ran towards him.. "hey,you know its 3:00 a.m and you should have been in your bed.i got so scared..what are you doing here?" she said worriedly..
It seemed he was lost in deep thought...he stared her for quite a long moment and whispered softly "ann,i wanna be with you..with mom and dad..with my friends...i don't wanna die"
Ann smiled and spontaneously gave a comforting reply "who the hell told you this crap?of course you'll be with us.you're not going anywhere.we aren't sending you anywhere.you know how much we love you"
Peter stood up and took a sit on her laps.. "but..in morning..in hospital...i heard doctor  telling mom that i've been diagnosed with cancer and i don't have much time...is it true?" he asked confused.
"Oh boy!he must be talking about someone else..not you silly!you're still a kiddo to suffer from this...now dump this stupid thing in some pit and give me a smile..i wonder where you get these thing to ponder upon.you're the best part of us,and if anyone ever dared to apart us,we'll screw him..right?..hi5 now."she raised her hand to give him hi5.
"promise?" peter asked softly.
"promise!!" ann assured with a smile.
he punched her hand..
"that's like a rockstar thing to do!" ann  spoke and both smiled..she wrapped her arms around him and closed her eyes at the comforting feeling.
When she opened them again,peter was missing from her laps.the eerie silence started to haunt her..."I am sorry...please come back..please" sick and torn...she broke down..tears spilled from her eyes again..and finally she started to cry harder.Hurt,sorrow,incompleteness,anger altogether were lined up in her heart..her mind was still craving for his image,and his voice was still hooked up to her senses..but he was GONE to never return.

Life goes on..

It was nearly midnight.The chilly winds of  december month was making her to shiver.she was standing near window,gazing the misty dark sky,pondering over the 25 years she has lived.her canvas of life had all the colors,right from the extreme bright to the dull,which made her remember the journey till now when someone asked her in morning overall how your life have been till now.she cheerfully answered 'truly awesome'
In her childhood,she was adored for no reason,mommy's sweetheart and daddy's angel she was.she got all the things she wanted,she experienced the most beautiful time.she was taught that wealth is not everything,its the honesty,love,trust and care what counts the most.
Then her teenage arrived.life turned out unkind,every time she thought something good is coming on her way,Mr. bad luck came in her way,destroying the faith.The people she loved the most left her,she tasted ignorance,hatred,betrayal,uncountable humiliations.her believes and dreams got shattered.she decided not to believe on the one with highest powers,in angels who makes everything fall in line.she gave up on everything,she gave up on herself.she was living just for the sake of existing.then one day,she read an article in newspaper *Be thankful for what you have*
It started with eye catching line-
Do you think you are the only one who is suffering in the whole world?you are the only one who have experienced the worst of everything?the betrayals,hatred,ignorance,humiliations?..
She couldn't resist reading the whole article,she continued..
there are some situations which break us in such a manner that we give up on everything,we crawl back in our shell and lock ourself in fake sense of security,but there are countless people around us who too have gone through the worst,or who are going through the same.no word of wisdom matters in such condition,even we're mature enough to understand the thing,and we knows time blunts the edges of grief,yet we sit back and cry because we have got nothing to fight for.but life is an ongoing process,none has got strong hold over it.there are large number of people who are deprived of basic requirements including what a person needs the most i.e food,shelter,clothing along with love,care,concern.at least you'll be having some of these.be happy and thankful to the lord above that you're blessed with wonderful gifts of life and make yourself capable of helping those who need you.be true to yourself,that's all what matters.people will enter in your life,but only few will remain till end.there is even possibility that all leave,but have faith that somewhere there is a road mapped out especially for you.
That day onwards,she moved on.she recollected the pieces of trust within,and fixed the hope in place.
years passed...
She faced all the challenges with courage,and embraced every little happiness.
At the age of 25,she was the loveliest and successful lady,with most beautiful heart in the world.

P.S-just trying hand in writing fiction.your comments and criticisms would be taken care of.. ^_^