It's time for me to let you go,

Faint glimmers of your presence gone decades ago,

If it is meant to be you will come again,

The way dewdrops settle on cold grass blade.

 

And the goat is getting hooked up with sheep..who cares?

I personally don't like attending weddings.Here it is more like a formality where more than forty percent people are not aware who's the poor one who's getting hooked up with someone for rest of life and nobody is concerned to give shit to it either.Seriously this happens.I'm alive example of one of those falling under forty percent.I remember when we were about to leave from last wedding i attended mom happily said Sonal was looking gorgeous na and I without any second thought replied oh so the bride's name is sonal.I realized the aunty standing behind mom  was staring me as if she saw an alien in the party.
Anyway let's get back to what i was saying, food variety is something which is the main reason why they actually choose to be guest and the second is the obligation to deal with society.I basically have no interest in appearing for the second reason,so i once in a blue moon manage to go with first one when mom throw her emotional sypaape(tantrums)..
Usually i make sure to see some cousin,you know how boring it can be otherwise.I guess most of you will agree with me if i say it is also one of the popular spot where parents try to dig perfect match for their grown up kids to ruin their bachelors life forever.The venue seem to be like a stock market where relatives act as brokers who put their best possible efforts to fix the relations out of nowhere.believe me you get to see atleast five such worried parents and curious relatives.I encountered one such in the last wedding i went in..I overheard the conversation because i was getting bored..it went like this..

Worried mom - Yeah we are also looking match for xyz(who cares to remember the name, bad at it.)
Typical relative - You know my blah blah blah's son is in us and earning one lakh per month.He's handsome too and your xyz isn't no less gorgeous.She know all household work...blah blah blah..if you permit,I can talk to his family.
Worried mom - I will ask her daddy regarding this and will let you know as soon as possible.
Typical relative - Arre make sure you think about it before its too late.You know how difficult it is to get great match these days.They won't ask for dowry too,No demands.This type of family is too rare...blah blah..!
And rest including the one for whom proposals are flooding is in busy in hogging all the varieties of food and scattering gossips unaware of secret plannings going around..
So this happens only in India...(Phew I'm too young to be included in this conversation and can live my life happily without any tension for six long years.) *wink*

Note to papa

"When someone miss you and want to see you, The person appears in your dream".

I read it somewhere and I'm clueless if its true or not.Time has rolled by slowly and i never really felt the same since you gone.I often feel your presence,For i know you are here.So what if not physically present.You may be gone from sight but in my mind you're still in view.May be this might be the reason i often see you in my dreams.Oh,how i wish the first line of this paragraph is true.It urge me to believe that you visit to see how am i doing.Somebody told its psychological effect...somebody said it is may be a sort of depression and i should try medicine or meditation but I don't give a fuck to that peculiar advise because it doesn't  make me sad.It provides motivation to carry on and I'm trying to become better as you always wanted it..Of course it will take time because you know how screwed i have been but progress is in process.
I hope you are doing good up there,
I need to rush for catching good sleep because it too late.
Miss you!

Only yours,
Sunakshi.


P.S. : I don't know if i should be posting it or not,I've deleted most of the personal updates long back because I shared pearl in darkness everywhere But then I don't care if anyone read this and think I'm insane.Many people,many mouth!

Follow your heart but hello,Take your brain!

There is a day,
When we cannot find our way,
Cocooned in isolation,
We forget the celebration.
What we reap is what we sow,
Somewhat like the place where caterpillars grow,
In rough emotions,Trapped we feel,
For its the heart which brings the seal.
Shouldn't brain get any chance here?
After all heart rules in every sphere,
I choose being practical then,
Its better to be okay than feeling like rotten egg.

Let it shine,Even if it does once in a while.

I don't need to make any excuses for my absence because we all understand we do have a life out of blogosphere and I do miss reading your blogs,Trust me!It isn't like that i follow you so that you follow my junk.
By the way, I would love to mention that somebody after ages thought of me when it came to passing award.Yes,Just when i thought I'm being considered as a kidnapped soul here.. Kinara  gave me this versatile blogger Award.Yeah,This just made my day.Thanks a ton buddy!! *smiling* I'm sorry but I'm running out of time I'm feeling way too lethargic to follow the rules but one thing is for sure,When it comes to passing it..Each one of you deserve this.No,I'm not lying.So,please feel free to mention it on your blog.Without a delay of any second,I declare,proclaim that all of us are awesome.
That's it for today.
See ya all some other time.
Enjoy and stay awesome! :D