She..

 

She walks with a million dollar smile,
She laughs without a reason everytime,
The world thinks she's addicted to drugs,
But its only her dreams for which she lives.
She talks to stars when world sleeps,
She weave the words on paper when her lips fails, 

She embrace the light from brim of faith,
When the darkness embrace her world in grey.
She skates on thin ice,
She works at snails pace,
She carefully moulds her steps,
Only to start a new beginning and get perfect ending. 

Existence in question

The stillness haunts me everynight,
The inner screams tears me apart,
Unwillingly my eyes become moist,
The sadness overshadow my smiles,
leading the question to my existence.
All day long there's a hollow feeling inside,
Even if i laugh,Am i happy?
I really can't decide.
The knife makes me think of slitting my wrist,
Getting rid of this irritating life,
But the memory of the day when i was going to do this,
The concern of my mother on that day scolds me ,
Her love,her believe,her affection

Made me sworn to never end my life this.
The helplessness to stop the unwanted thoughts,
leads to the restlessnesses,
Consumes the every littleness of joy from within,
Turns the faith into nothingness.
I collapse and close my eyes,
Plugging the earphones with music too loud,
Though the loudness of songs overshadow the inner screams,
But the unwanted train of thoughts never leaves.

My first award xD

I've been awarded for the very first time by anoop :)

Thanks a lot for it :)

here's my award -----

 Rules for the award :

- List five current obsessions.
- Pass the award on to five more fabulous blogs.
- On your post of receiving this award, make sure you include the person that gave you the award and link it back to them.
- When you post your five winners, make sure you link them as well.
- Don’t forget to let your winners know they won an award from you by leaving a comment on their blog.

 5 things i am obsessed about :

1.My cellphone-texting is my all time favourite work xD

2. Music-i am kinda addicted to it xD

3.Novels-best for time pass xD

4.Poems :)

5.My computer ;)

I would like to pass this award to :





















Ambika,Akshat,pandora,jalpari, and phoenix

Essence of loneliness..

 I don't want the lavished cars to travel in,
I want no stars in my hands.
I don't want all happiness of world for me,
I want no place among the celebrities.
I barely want all to care for me,
I got no desire of being the richest.
Stability is what all i want,
Serenity is what i wish for.
Chaos leads question to my sanity,
 melancholy engulfs me gently.
Rejected by all,
Subjected to death.

Darkness is what i am,
Light is what i signify.
I am headed towards the zenith,
With the numerous hopes and faith.
I will laugh loudly all the way,
Even if my smile would be broken.

Silently pray to be blessed..

The drops of rain seems so soothing,

The chirping of birds is just amazing,

Just see the morning at five,

Its just an awesome view.

Like the endless sky is only limit for eagles,

Like there are no boundaries for fishes to swim,

Like the mountains got endless heights,

I too silently wish to be blessed....

Tired of saying i am perfectly imperfect,

Tired of screwing everything in one way or another,

Isn't there a way i too could fly away?

The world is an illusion,

Leading to confusions,

The people are fake,

They circle around fame with so many faces,

They pretend to be what they are not,

They pretend to care when inside they curse,

They cook up one's story on their own,

Unaware of  the misery he o' she suffers.

Suffering the pain of  being not understood,

Bearing the irritation of being misunderstood,

Stuck in mid of everything,

Travelling in train of thoughts,

Under the dark clouds,

Every night i silently pray to be blessed...