Thursday, December 31, 2009

award for all :)

Last post  of 2009! !~!
I am thankful  to everyone  here  for supporting  me through out my journey as  a  blogger.It was truly an awesome experience knowing you all,posting comments on your blogs,getting comments,exchanging the views,but most importantly enjoying people made blogging really worthy for me.thanks a tonne.  :)
May 2010 bring best of bestest things in your life ,take care always,enjoy :)

For being so supportive,i would like to give this 'nothing is as sweet as you' award to every follower of mine as a token of thanks.kindly please accept it :)

Keep blogging and keep rocking!~! \m/

Sunakshi :)

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

                  No one hears the gentle thump of her faltering heart,
No one realize she need a thread  of support,
No one sees the battles raging inside,
She silently scream save me please,
But no one comes by her side.
Hatred and despair engulfs her completely,
 Disappointment have always  been her best buddy,
The urge to isolate from crowd,
Deep cuts her soul hold,
Nothing suppress the growing sorrow.

P.S-Just a random effort. xD

People come into your life and people leave it.You just have to trust that life has a road mapped out for you.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Wandering soul

The voice in her head screams aloud,
Yet her lips don't utter a word,
The mistakes she had done,
The pits in which she had fallen,
It terribly reminds her of every bad that had happened.
Fighting the battle within,
Nothing to say,
Nowhere to escape,
Nothing to ponder,
On the meaningless streets her brain wander.
She sit in the crowded place,
And the world pass her by,
Tracing the criss crossed lines on her palm,
Gazing the destiny which made her path,
Reflecting the decisions which changed her life.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Christmas note.

Lonely you are not you know,
Then why does your sorrow grow?
It is not the time to sit and wonder why,
Its Christmas baby,
Time to celebrate and enjoy.
Don't let any bitter memory torment you again,
Gather the courage so that nothing could increase your pain,
Keep sour thoughts of yours far away,
Its Christmas baby,
Time to sing and play.
Let your voice reach to everyone who's struggling,
 To those who have home nowhere,
To those who are burning in flame of  despair,
Its Christmas baby,
May god bless them lets pray.
Let your flute compose sweetest melody,
For those who hope for sunlight someday,
To heal their internal wounds,
Its Christmas baby,
Time to be thankful for what you've got and spread smiles.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Unspoken words of sad picture..

She was the sweetest thing ever,
She was loved by everyone around her,
Inside she was sick and sore,
No doubt she was a walking disaster.
Leaves scattered without a sound,
Blanket of colors decorated the ground,
There her spirit got shattered,
With nameless pain she was hooked.
Dullness is what she could smell in air,
 She barely looked any world beyond despair,
Every time she laughed she lied,
 Innocence in her eyes was always unconfined.
Isolated from the realistic world,
She crawled in her shell,
Living in fake sense of security,
She escaped from cruelty.
No consolations worked,
neither for any piece of hope she looked,
She died million times before dying,
Desperately she chased her ending.

P.S-I came across this picture last night,even though its terribly sad but i kinda loved it.tried to give it some words,dunno if i've done justice to it o' not.!! XD

Monday, December 14, 2009

True love..

His life was an elegy before you came,
You entered and he got wings to fly,
With all the love and care you gave him,
Each day he got better reason to stay alive.
No thousand words he could use to thank you,
Just his soul he could afford to lose for you,
His heart belongs to you,
All he could say forever he will be with you.
He is left with no strength to stay away from you,
You are the one whom he owe so much,
 You are the one he need for rest of his life,
You are his angel sent from above.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Follow your heart

She always wanted something to call her own,
She searched and searched and  got lost in vain,
 It was the time when he spoke,
Brutality is a way of life,
Happiness never comes without strife,
Each one have struggle  have pain.
He wasn't her lover,
He wasn't a stranger,
He wasn't just an ordinary speaker,
He was the one whom she could always count,
He was her heart,
He was her best mate.
Peacefully she listen to him when things go wrong,
He is the one who sings her a song,
A song of hope,
A song of joy,
A song to inspire,
A song to aspire before she expire.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Rise like a phoenix

Time blunts the edge of grief,
Listen to me,listen to me please,
Leave your soul free,
Watch her dance,watch her dance please.
He is done with shuffling your destiny cards,
Yes the one above with highest powers,
Guess what he has got for you in his store,
Its an ace which everyone waits for.
Rise like a phoenix from the ashes of worst time,
Its all your time to shine,
No use of harping on the same string,
Don't hung up at your last leg.
Time blunts the edge of grief,
Listen to me,listen to me please,
Leave your soul free,
Watch her dance,watch her dance please.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Go to the sleep.

O noble creature,
Go to the sleep,
Visit the place where you always wanted to be,
Far away from this agony,
Beyond the world of despair,
Where you could be you,
On your very own land,
Where you never have to say hello to goodbye,
Where there is nothing to learn,
No chapter to teach you anything,
Where you could be free,
Where you can actually breathe,
Where right and wrong never existed,
Where tears are befriended with concern,
Where fight and hurts don't live,
Where only love is all around,
Where pure hearts surrounds,
Where your silence could be understood,
Where light never faded,
Where souls were never traded,
Where happiness doesn't live apart,
Where  you can live before you die.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

10 stupid questions..

I was going through my mailbox,and came across this.
10 most stupid questions people usually ask in obvious situations.
 1. At the movies: When you meet acquaintances/friends...
Stupid Question:-
Hey, what are you doing here?
Dont u know, I sell tickets in black over here.
2. In the bus: A heavy lady wearing pointed high-heeled shoes steps on your feet...
Stupid Question:-
Sorry, did that hurt?
No, not at all, I'm on local anesthesia.....why don't you try again.

3. At a funeral: One of the teary-eyed people ask...
Stupid Question:-
Why, why him, of all people.
Why? Would it rather have been you?

4. At a restaurant: When you ask the waiter
Stupid Question:-
Is ! the "Butter Paneer Masala" dish good??
No, its terrible and made of adulterated cement. We occassionaly also spit in it.

5. At a family get-together: When some distant aunt meets you after years...
Stupid Question:-
Munna, Chickoo, you've become so big.
Well you haven't particularly shrunk yourself.

6. When a friend announces her wedding, and you ask...
Stupid Question:-
Is the guy you're marrying good?
No,he's a miserable wife-beating , insensitive's just the money.

7. When you get woken up at midnight by a phone call...
Stupid Question:-
Sorry. were you sleeping?
No. I was doing research on whether the Zulu tribes in Africa marry or not. You thought I was dumb witted moron.

8. When you see a friend/colleague with evidently shorter hair...
Stupid Question:-
Hey have you had a haircut?
No, its autumn and I'm shedding......

9. At the dentist when he's sticking pointed objects in your mouth...
Stupid Question:-
Tell me if it hurts?
No it wont. It will just bleed.

10. You are smoking a cigarette and a cute woman asks...
Stupid Question:-
Oh, so you smoke.
Gosh, it's a miracle was a piece of chalk and now it's in flames!!!

Monday, November 23, 2009

Solitary confinement

To break the silence of million years,
She need her voice her words,
A poem which was never written,
With an everlasting soothing tune!
Her eyes hold no beauty,
They are victim of cruel reality,
In the corner of her mind,
Innocent unheard thoughts reside.
 Her nights were always darker than black,
Her days were more than colorless,
Never she saw any color,
They had never been in her favor.
No where to escape,
No way to live,
Broken in ever manner,
Her life is a long solitary confinement! 
Not filling any void,
Not killing any noise,
She is breathing but can't survive,
She is living but isn't alive. 



Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Larger than life

Yes she is a dreamer,
But never she chase any fairytale,

She neither see the white horse coming around,
Nor she imagine herself as princess of her mr. right. 
She admits she is flawed,
She had fallen in pits many a times,
It isn't that she never cried,
There were even times when she surrendered to give a try.
What had happen,had to happen,

Uncertainty looms large over tomorrow even,
None has got strong hold over the time,
What will happen,will happen once in a while.
With enormous believe she moves ahead,
Change is inevitable and the latest trend,

She weave the new dreams,
She paints the canvas of her life with bright colors.
Whenever her life leads the passage to darkness,
She lights up the candle even in the wind being fearless,
Her inner voice keep her going,
When her feet starts  stumbling.




Saturday, November 14, 2009

Award ! =)

Once again,i've been awarded and this time its from  shri's side =) thank you so much shri =)

Here are few rules for accepting this ^_^

1. Thank whoever gave this to you
2. Copy award
3. Post it in your blog
4. Tell us 7 things that your readers don’t know
5. Link 7 new bloggers
6. Notify winners of the award with a comment on their blog
7. Most of all - Keep being awesome!

Here are seven things my readers don't know :

  •  I love playing video games.
  • Disney channel is one of my favorite >:D<
  • I hate politicians the most. :-@
  • I don't cry easily anymore *yeyy .its been long time i didn't cry ,few months =P
  • I love trying out new dishes,though i don't much eat >:D<
  • I am hopeless cook,singer,and dancer =P
  • I neither feel like living my life,nor i feel like ending it up.
 I pass this award to dido,ambika,sulagna di,pramoda,aritra,lizzie and amity me =)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Touch of coldness

She should know who she is by now she wonder,
Sometimes i think i know her,
Invisible fears embrace her frozen heart,
Early winters shivers her body in the silent night.
Through her window pane she watches the city streets,
Underneath the cold and stormy skies,
She see the clarity of her soul,
Tears falling  from her eyes messed with kohl.
Her eyes that once held life,
Now they're hard and cold as ice,
Her parted lips don't utter words,
Her sobs witness the broken dreams.
                                  I wish i could soothe her wounds,
  I wish i could ease her strain,  
But she seems to be in deep vain,
I've got nothing for her to gain.
I wish could tell this girl in the mirror,
There is nothing to fear,
Its just the matter of time,
Someday everything will surely fall in a single line.



Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Yours forever

"I do believe the lord above,
Created you for me to love,
He picked you up from the rest,
Because he knew that i could love you best.
So,if someday i'll die and you will remain here,
I will wait for you on the golden stair,
And if you will not there on the judgment day,
I'll believe that you went other way.
I'll return my golden wings,
My golden heart and my magic sticks,
To prove you my love is true,
I will long to hell only to be with you"

P.s-just a fiction ,based on  the idea where angel falls in love with beast .*beauty and the beast*  :)

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Take life as it comes

The sun is shining far too bright,
Sitting there she realize that no doubt its fading,
The misty gray night is approaching,
Without a single complaint,with no more grudges,
Unafraid and strong,
Embracing the solitude she stays on the sea shore,
She notice the voice of her every single breath,
She hears the whispered pearls of her inner voice.
Not out of her mind,
Feeling brave,
No more bleeding no more crying,
No more crawling,no more falling,
She waits for the darkness to arrive,
Feeling  nice she  looks up in the sky,
She thanks the almighty for everything,
She decides to take life as it comes.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Broken inside..

                               She want to live somewhere,
Where there is a sweet and calm air,
She painted her face with bright colors,
Because life on the outside has got different flavors.
She is broken from inside,
No one will ever get to see the tears she cry,
She protect her outer shell with smile,
She don't reveal the pain even for a while.
She wants the time to be on her side,
The time when everything falls in straight line,
She wants her faith to heal the deep cuts,
But its the harshness what punch her in guts.

Staying up all night long,
She realized the bitter taste of losing everything,
She waited for sky to fall down,
 Even though she knew nothing like that would happen.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

I am starting with a new blog,which would be all about my life,and only the invited ones would be able to read it.if anyone is interested in reading loadsa crap and wasting time,gimme the email id's so that i can send you the invite =) Its "key keeper" (Nothing has been posted till now,even the template is not chosen yet) will start with the posting stuff from tomorrow.In case you dun wanna put up your email address here,you can mail me at the email address given at the bottom of blog *peace out*

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Two more awards *yayy =)

For ^ Thank you so much sulagna di =)

I pass this award to dido,shri,ambika,akshat,pramoda,anoop.

For ^ thank you so much dido =)

I pass this award to shri,sulagna di,pramoda,anoop,ambika,akshat

Friday, October 30, 2009

second award *yayy

Thank you so much shri =)

I pass this award to ambika,akshat,dido,sulagna,aritra and anoop =)


This one is for shri  =)

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Move on

Walking through empty streets,
Her heart began to fill with silent screams,
She tried to look back to call upon someone,
"Don't look back" her wisdom suddenly answered.
Her mind started loosing control,
Surrounded by the haunting loneliness,
Her tears were eager to flow,
"No more tears" her faith reminded.
Withered with thirst and tired,
Not knowing which way to turn,
She paused and closed her eyes,
She remembered her mother's lullaby,
Her growing up,
Her bruised knees and tears she shed,
Mixed with the beautiful times she had.
 The world is out there,
She must try to conquer her fear,
Life is like a circle
She ought to get around it,
She thought.
She opened her eyes again,
Feeling empty,lost and drained,
"Move on" gently her inner voice whispered,
The visions blurred and voices faded,
She looked ahead and moved.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


I have been tagged again by shri.thanks again :)

Lets check how dumb i am o.O lol

The more [x]’ s the “dumber” i am.o.O

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking

[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking

[ ] You have ran into a glass/screen door

[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle

[x ] You have thought of something funny while walking by yourself

[ ] Laughed, then watched people give you weird looks

So far: 1

[ ] You have run into a tree/bush.

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow

[ ] You have tried to lick your elbow… a few times

[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little star have the same rhythm.

[] You just tried to sing them.

So far: 2

[x ] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.

[ ] You have choked on your own spit .

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don’t get it.

[ ] You’ve never seen the Matrix.

[ ] You type only with two fingers.

So far: 3

[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire

[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.

[ ] You have caught yourself drooling.

[ ] You have fallen asleep in class and fell outta your chair

So far: 4

[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking

[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about

[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you

[ ] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.

[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math

So far: 5

[ ] You have eaten a bug

[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important

[ ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it

[ ] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand

[ ] You have ran around naked in your house.

So far: 6

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t.

[x] You break a lot of things.

[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.

[ ] You tilt your head when you’re confused

[ ] You have fallen out of your chair before

So far: 7

[x] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling or wall

[ ] The word “ummmmm” is used many times a day.

Total 6 out of 37.

6/37 * 100 =16.2 % lol  =P

I pass this tag to : aritra,dido,anoop,ambika,akshat

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Another Tag *yayy xD

I have been tagged by shri,though its the same as the previous one was,but i would like to take it up,thanks shri  =)
RULES: Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.

1. What is your current obsession? collecting watches

2. What are you wearing today? black top and capry

3. What’s for dinner? Dal makhni,rice and chapati's *yum*

4. What’s the last thing you bought? medicine *urgh*

5. What are you listening to right now?  shukran allah from kurbaan movie

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? Impressive writer,don't know much about her but on observing her posts she seems to be really good person. :)

7. Which was the latest movie you saw and what was your review? Saw namaste london yesterday,its one of my favorie =D

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? sunscreen lotion =D

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? um dalhousie xD

10. Which language do you want to learn? french

11. What’s your favorite quote? "Everything happens for a reason"

12. Who do you want to meet right now? quite a long list =D

13. What is your favorite color? white

14. What would you do if you would be made the President of USA ? will probably order to shoot all the politicians =P 

15. What is your biggest desire?to get the stability =) 

16. What’s your favorite magazine? I don't read magazines =P

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? shopping..long list =D

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? Too much Bling looks tacky.

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? amitabh,he should sit back and rest at home =D

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer? Long Hairs

21. What are you going to do after this? um might listen to some good music,and get back to books..

22. Who is your favorite sport star? Sania used to be one,none these days..

23. What are three cosmetic/makeup/perfume products that you can't live without? nothing...i dont use these stuffs

24. What inspires you? my inner voice.

25. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?Listen to songs...That helps ..seriously...

26. What does your friends call you most commonly?commonly shona and sona,i wonder why they call me so o.O

27. Would you prefer coffee or tea? coffee and only coffee xD

28. the place you like the most in your house?my room..

29. What is the meaning of your name? who has the ability to hear through eyes

30. Which other blogs do you love visiting?keep reading the updates of the ones which i am following =)

31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? Ice cream *yum*

32. Favorite Season? Winter...and rainy

33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? omlette or macroni you'll get with ease =)

34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? i am bad at it,i just avoid talking to them

35. What are you afraid of the most? fire and loosing my close ones.

36. What do you love most about yourself? self praising isn't good for health lol =P

37. What's that one thing you want to remove from this world? Politicians =P

38. Who is your favorite celebrity? um none as such =P

39.whats your  favorite idea of bunking boring lectures? =P
I pass this tag to : ambika,akshat,dido,aritra,ravindra,anoop..

Sunday, October 25, 2009


The fear of self destruction is eating me inside,
I don't want to retrace my steps even for a while,
All i know is now i am all alone,
Sitting here i wonder what do i truly long for in this life.
Sadness is not what i carry along all time,

But at times its inevitable even if we don't commit a crime,
Things gets a lot better after misery somewhere i know,
But will it happen for me too i really wanna know.
Drenched in melancholy,
I fail to understand my own identity,
I try to look for way to escape,
But all i left with shattered pieces of mine.
The torn pages of hope,
The thirst of being fine,

The dim rays of light,

None seems to be in sight.


Friday, October 23, 2009

The night tale

The sun sets leading the way for night,
The moon overshadows the darkness with its bright light,
The aroma of calmness brings inevitable joy,
The sound of silence makes urge to fly.
An aura of encouragement surrounds,
The pearl like stars flashes bright smiles,
Some meaningless thoughts preoccupy my mind,
I ponder over the theory behind high tide.
Someone peep from deep inside,
It whisper something i really can't decide,
I try to look for it,
But i only end up with deep sigh.
An odd vision trigger my eyes,
Its so blurr that i wonder how life changes it color,
Lost in understanding this weird game,

The moon disappears leading the way for sun to shine.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

In the world of lies..

Hide the tangled webs within,
Because no one will ever like to listen,
Dare to live another day with smile,
If happiness doesn't stay with you even for a while.
You have learned a lot from your dumb mistakes,
Don't give  yourself a chance to repeat them again,
Even if the sorrow consumes you from inside,
Hide the pain behind the mask called life.

There is always a world beyond despair,
May be not now but someday you will be there,
Weave out the way to soothing season through the winter,
Nothing is impossible when hope doesn't surrender.
Search the sanity  lighting a candle,
Get the courage to fight for better day,
Don't drown  in ocean of instability,
Wishing each day to be the last day.
Don't let the past bother you,
If wishes were reality,
Every one would have lived happily,
No zeal remained no season faded.


Sunday, October 18, 2009

miss you..

Here i am sitting blank,
I look at the cards,
I look at the gifts,
Then i look around to search you with moist eyes.

The never ending talks we used to had,
The silly,cute and touching texts we used to sent,
The stupid fights we had,
The sweetest and hilarious consolations we gave,
All this brings a smile with sigh on my face.
We ain't lovers,
We ain't enemies,
We are the best friends forever,
The strongest relationship we share.
I can't describe how much i miss you,
May you get best of everything,
Smiles and happiness become your best companion,
Thats all what i wish for you.
My trust upon you,
The promise to stand by you forever,
Care,love and understanding,
Is what i can give you,
I only know how much i miss you.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Worn out feelings

Where have all of the time been?
The time she lived.
Where have all of the memories gone?
The memories which she was supposed to cherish till end.
She walks the same streets now,
But why everything seems to be changed?
Through the corner of her bright smile,
why the urges springs to break the silence of time?
It seems she is searching something badly,
But why she herself couldn't understand what she is missing?
She is connected to the ecstatic world,
But why it seems she wanders on darkest highway?
She seem to bear the hollowness with ease,
But why no one cares to colour her world with the fresh breeze?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Thats what friends are for..

It was a lovely day,the drops of rain were continously touching the window pane.the aroma of fresh breeze was filling heart and soul of tehzeeb with new dreams and hopes.her spirits were high,she was dancing without music,the sweetness of weather provided the soothing melody.suddenly her cell phone rang up,she picked it up.the voice was jovial,it was her best friend heena.

Heena : hullo
Tehzeeb :  hey bitch =P
Heena : you can never change *laugh* how're you doing? ;)
Tehzeeb : no never! *laugh* m doing great,how about you?
Heena : truly rocking like always ;)
Tehzeeb : ooh rockstar eh? =P hey btw did you watch rock on?the new show on mtv
Heena : nopes!powercut mahn!i feel like shooting the power suppliers,they should be called at one place and then shooted at once *laugh*
Tehzeeb :*laugh* oh please have some mercy on them,it would seem like jalliahwala bagh part-2 =P 
Heena : alright!mercy granted,go and announce that heena khan has granted another life to power suppliers and they can party now  xD *laugh*
Tehzeeb : yea sure sure!you'll go to heaven haan,their families will surely pray for you =P *laugh*
Heena : lol yeap.
Tehzeeb : hmph,what happened?
Heena : nothing,nothing at all,why?
Tehzeeb : whom are you fooling dude?speak up?tell na what happened?
Heena : arre what made you think that something has happened?seriously nothing is there..
Tehzeeb : cool!means you'll be telling afterwards,isn't it?
Heena : *finally broke into tears* how did you get to know?i tried my best to veil it up with laughs?do you know any trick?i mean you never go wrong in predicting my mood?even on text you catch it with ease?how?
Tehzeeb : hmph..dunno dude,i just get it.what happened anyway,don't change the topic now.else i'll paint your hidden wings with purple lolx
Heena : series of incidences,i'll text you after sometime.i am getting late for friends birthday party for to you in night buddy.
Tehzeeb-okay,but do enjoy the party,and  don't drink vodka in excess and dance like lunatic jerk like the way you did in amrita's party last year *laugh* and yea,cheer up,do puke out whatever is bothering you,we'll burn it up by moulding it in comic scene xD
Heena-yup,for sure *laugh* .i am relaxed now.thanks a tonne for great understanding you shower upon you :)
Tehzeeb - aw thats what friends are for buddy , love you too .. now go for party na,have fun,love you too  xD
Heena-bye .. see ya :)

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