Sunday, February 28, 2010


It seems like yesterday
When my patience got answered in the best way
I am thankful to the one with highest powers
For making us life partners.
We've been through hard times
Beautiful moments we cherished forgetting all the bad times
Whatever the season was
You have always been my sunshine man.
I still remember when terrible incident took you away
I couldn't believe and yes i still don't
You are far away yet so near
Your presence i feel in air.
I sit in my chair
 Pretending to read my book
But let me tell you a secret
Its your memory i am always hooked.
Lonesome tear do slip on my cheek many times
I miss you every time
Then i feel your voice in my ears
And a faded smile rest upon my lips.
Despite of melancholy i strongly believe
Somewhere in heaven we will certainly meet again
Because we are meant to be together 
Forever and ever and ever..

NOTE - Its just a fiction,i wrote months back because i liked the picture very much!!  :)


Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I see the pale melting moon in dark night,
I stare at the single star shining bright tonight,
It whispers a melody which i never heard,
It mocks the unending chatter that plagues the mind.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

That's me

I can't blame my destiny
If this is my reality
Yes there are mistakes i have made
There are things which can't be changed.
A silent smile rest upon my lips
I gently accept all my flaws
As a faint glimmer of understanding
Always stays in my sight.
When i lose my wisdom
I really don't expect anyone
There is always gonna be another mountain
And none would always come to see me.
I won't ever be anything
Anything except me 
Why do i care for those who don't know me
When they will never understand me.
I don't recognize what i have come to be
But deep deep inside somehow i could reach to inner me
I am still the same somewhere
A dreamer,a believer and a spectator.

Monday, February 15, 2010

She finally got the lyrics of the song,
The song which was deep inside her heart,
Her heart was so pure,
So pure she herself was. 

Random scribbling

I'll be out of here,
But will it be out of me ever?
This frustration is killing me,
My soul is finally on fire.
I want to save me from myself now,
How can i stop these sour thoughts of mine?
.My absence doesn't count,
My presence isn't noticeable.
Will any one ever care to think,
About the girl who used to wander here.

Melancholy personified

Even though i exist i am no one,
The numbness has taken away my soul,
I don't feel the pain,
I don't feel the happiness,
For heaven sake,
Bring my sanity back.
Yeah i am going insane,
I don't know whats this hollow feeling inside,
I don't remember when was the last time i smiled a real smile,
I don't know what's wrong or what's right,
Neither i find any reason to die,
Nor i see any reason to live.

Where the compassion is?

We born alone,
We'll die alone,
Nothing last forever,
Forever is nothing.
The relationships we cherish are just lie,
My family and my friends,
Isn't that what we always say.
What about others?
What about animals?
Where has the compassion gone?
Isn't it the thing which make us different from other kinds?

She is awake in the infinite cold,
Far away in her own world,
Working on her wishful dreams,
Where there is only laughter of her happy times.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Faint glimmer of hope

My hands are open to embrace the cold winds passing by,
I guess this tough time will soon fly away,
I have no idea how and when,
Not just smiles but laughters will accompany me then.
May be i am not sure who i am now,
May be i don't know who i'll be ,
But trust on this note of mine,
When i say my thirst to live never dies.
Yeah i started breaking,
No doubt i started stumbling,
I suffocate in the shadows at times,
I wander in silent screams many times.
Pure exhilaration is not what am i expecting to arrive,

I know nothing can ever stop strive,
Yet there is a hope for a real smile,
I guess something better would be awaiting on other side.

Unsaid script

The faint scent of time whispers something i don't recognize,
I fail to recognize who am i now,
I don't understand the reason for my existence,
I  barely recognize the reflection in the mirror,
Nor i know the reflection in the water,
I stumble and fall yet i fail to scream.
I want to live not just breathe,
I want to take my last breathe in solace,
Though my thoughts are scattered,
Though my life's dairy is messed up,
Yet i've this feeling deep inside,
Some day everything will be alright.
I might turn into ashes that day,
Nobody would get an excuse to curse me everyday,
I'll be in world mystery of which nobody knows,
Some call it heaven,
Some afraid and name it hell,
But it would be my final destination for sure.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Emotional outburst

Can you smile when you are feeling extremely low?

Can you lend your ears to anything which sounds good when everything seem to be so messed up?

Can you walk in a crowded place when all you want is a long walk by yourself?

Can you feel the real-ness when you're in between dream state and awake?

Does it matter what anyone would think about you when the only thing in your mind is that someday you'll die and turn into ashes.none would have an excuse to speak shit about you then,those who hated you throughout your life,would get no one to'll be free,free from every damn thing!

My thoughts are scattered,at times i find it really difficult to collect them at one place.i am pissed inside,i don't know why?wait.may be i know,err who cares!when your existence seems to be useless,and your life is just black and white it really doesn't taste so good.i've a bad habit of getting mood swings,and it awesomely appears on face, seriously this isn't a very nice thing.and i am not proud of it either.i really can't pretend to be alright when my life amazingly offers me hard time,and i feel as if i am breathing just for the sake of surviving,nothing more than meaningless breaths.i went out with my friends few days back,it was my best friends birthday,it was supposed to be perfect for her coz she turned 18,but alas!i couldn't be present mentally  though i was there with them.ah!chemical imbalance but overall it was nice,i didn't scream or broke anything atleast. :D i wish i knew this trick of veiling up my mood swings with different colors.

I don't know why the heck life is being so damn complicated or i am making so?and you know what,from past two or three days i don't feel like scribbling in notebooks.yep,may be because i don't feel anymore,i am not making random it a nice thing?to feel nothing?um may be yes,may be helps when you are hated by majority.. and believe me this person,writing this crap is certainly hated by many. ^_^

Long post eh?

Thanks for bearing ^_^

Yep it is like a pearl

I know i've been missing for a while,and i've already given a reason for it :[ but nice thing is my system is working properly now and so my internet is back xD even though i won't be able to come regularly,but can certainly peep in sometimes xD

Anyways,i lately realised that this blog is no more 'unspoken words'.it's something more than that,

It gives wings to my imagination,
Here i break free from all my tensions,
When i feel low,
And see no place to go,
Here countless inspirations makes me smile,
It keeps my sanity alive.
It's like my most beautiful mansion,
It's like my best creation,
It's like my authentic healer,
It's like my all time supporter,
Here i weave serenity for my eyelids,
Certainly like a pearl in darkness it is.

So,the conclusion is, that i am changing the blog name to 'Pearl in darkness'. :)

I'll change the blog appearance soon.if anyone know any good site for designing the header and background,then please let me know.

Monday, February 1, 2010


I know my blog is dead from quite a long time and that is because of my exams preparation.moreover my computer system is not working,posting through cellphone right now :( missing you all so much,i'll be back after a month or two...takecare ...hf
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