Just an another day,BIRTHDAY!

I spent two weeks in pure torture. The bleak miserable days. They make me shudder.I was too busy.
I have nothing new to blog about,so let me tell you about some epic NON-SENSE .

It all happened so soon. I have 12 days of being a teen and then it will be over, I will be an official grown up lady. Goodbye to teen on this 25th..! which I'm not so looking forward.To be honest,yes the thought of turning  20 is little scary.

The reason is quite obvious, I won't be a teen, anymore.yes,this is the first reason.lame?yeah,i know.

What is the second?well,that's much more lame than the first one i just mentioned.It is the confusion that is there any chance that tomorrow am going to grow bigger, mature and have my life together? Don't think so.On top of it i can really expect the typical desi dialogue from none other than the most wonderful lady who gave me birth,saying "You're not a teenager anymore.GROW UP.

Anyway,lets keep this twenty-phobia aside because what has to happen will happen.Its really not in our hands to stop the growing age.But living is in our hands.Someone has rightly said,life's what make it..! and if it turns out to be shit,just make sure you don't spoil the remaining portion.you never know when the final call can knock on your door. -->  *my saying* 

Many people are annoyed with me when I try everything possible to avoid celebrating my birthday.I don't like being forgotten though.Its usually totally an unplanned day like any other without any excitement or crazy stuff which usually i see in other people whenever their birthdays are near and somehow it always turn out to be good in the end with gossips and fun with few Good friends and family.Here is a random list of reasons why I don’t celebrate birthday,

1. It’s an arbitrary unit based on a calendar that’s based on the Earth’s rotation round the Sun.
2. I’m no different on my birthday than the day before or the day after.
3. Decades aren’t a good measure of milestone.
4. It’s a commercial industry of cards and ample amount of gifts.
5. It’s never on a convenient day.
6. It's just the worst date ever.

Btw,hoping for awesome Better twenty because nineteen has been the worst so far.

What a pleasure being at place where you belong-SCREWED UP CORNER.

I really feel lazy like hell these days.I feel like sleeping all the time at my off hours,may be because of so much stress. :|

 I’m out of the blue now. I came back to the normal version of life.

Everything is okay, not good, but okay. 

Btw, Let me shift your attention from my boring life to what i want to share with you all.Its not a story or a poem which i often scribble.Its just something that struck to  my grain sized brain.

Here it goes,

I read somewhere-Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave." 

But have you ever wondered how these chances,mistakes,pain,failures change the whole life?The phases which may get over but at times hovers like an unseen ghost spoiling the entire being.Though we manage to survive through all,but doesn't it leave an everlasting impact? :|

   

*Peace*

I wonder over the feeling that eat me inside,

Yet nothing come to my mind,

Lonely i am not i know,

Yet why does my despair grow?

In tiny little vacancies,

Through the spotlights,as the emotions flee,

A minute off my mind,withdrawn,

Digging around a smile,taking a solid turn.

You may say,

Darkness is in my blood,

But silently i try and pray,

Yet there seems to be no respite from this flood.