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Tuesday, January 18, 2011

In a moment of rage, hurt and stinging tears, the confessions tumbled out. No surprise. No judgments. Just soothing words. A few scattered comments.And then the advice: It isn't going to be rosy...You must settle with it.urgh !That's something already known and accepted.
It is rare that I have a heart to heart with any of my folks. Mostly the lack of deep conversation emanates from the discomfort of being judged on choices made.The more I was told to come to terms with the settling in part, the more rebellious I became.Partly, because I knew it to be unfair and partly also because an extremely rigid sense of right and wrong was installed in me long ago.It is probably something that never came from the surroundings. It came from within somewhere..and here i stand,pictured as strong person.
Often, I would question - Why can't the other party do it as much as I do it. These questions would be in relation to broken friendships, people who turned their backs in the moment of crisis etc.But then again that's one of the reason I've managed to become wiser.I know my feelings are valuable and there's no way anyone can ever mess up my self esteem..even though it needs courage and patience..and yes,i possess the very same.
Because on good days, they will stand by me, love me, hold me and be good to me. On bad days, there's no guarantee of anyone.

20 comments:

Anoop KR said...

i dont know wat to tel u..readin ur post... if u r upset, i dont wanna reinforce it with my set of advice..

but cheer up..okay..! :)

Raajii said...

ah well said. I have felt that way too.

welcome to my world of poetry said...

True friends will always be there for you. Don't give up.

Yvonne.

DiDo said...

Cheer up girl..All i can give u is ahugg... keep smiling

Deepika said...

i might sound crazy but i believe- live alone stay happy... akele tum kisi ko dhokha nahi de sakte.. khud ko bhi nahi.
thats the bliss... solitary life ... noone is gonna stand when u 'actually' need them.

Beyond Horizon said...

Loneliness felt many times... True friends will always be with you but still one should never depend on anyone...being lonely is soothing too...get to know more about self...and more so how to stay happy even in those lonely days...difficult but not impossible
:)

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

same here..i learned to be independent with myself..i wont often rely to others because i know there's no guarantee that they are true or they just want something from you..being strong enough to protect yourself and be by yourself is talking precautionary measures (for me) in dealing with people. the more i trust the more i am hurt

btw..check my latest post @ my blog! :D it's about my first oneshot manga! ^^

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

You know, I hold this notion, that we can't get hurt until we want to. And really expecting from others, its an invitation to get hurt. Though we can't stop expecting altogether, but the slight memory of the negation can give a big cushion when it does happen.

Regards,
Blasphemous Aesthete

Raj said...

this aint candy. this is more like chewing gum. something to think about.
first blas aes is right. absolutely. its you who makes yourself vulnerable to someone else.

and secondly, there might be people who would try the best to be there in your bad days. they just may not make it. so you never know. life can be kind off awkwardly mathematics and times. dont try to solve it :)

The Silhouette said...

Hey, Hi
i second Blasphemous Aesthete's thoughts on this matter. It we who give others the power to hurt us, coz we have certain expectations from them...and at the moment of our need when they fail to turn up, its our angered mind that refuses to see their plight, the reason for their failure and bitters the relationship... Loneliness is a bliss if self imposed, but a torment if inflicted upon us...
its just us, if we can learn to let go and let people live lives to their terms, accept them for the person they are and accept their actions too, life wouldnt be so unfair on us too...

Regards,
The Silhouette...

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

RE: thanks for the support..tell me what you think about it when you finished reading it ok..?

thank you so much :3

Sumit Sarkar said...

I agree with Deepika..
I have experienced similar situations in my life...
Be happy :)

Unruly Rebel said...

another nice one..i just love readin ur posts...

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

really..? try downloading it again..others have already read it..if it still like that, comment again and ill give you another link :)

♫♪♥Lonely Dreamer♥♪♫ said...

Sometimes, it's okay to just stop thinking and doing whatever one feels like :)
Feel life! And you'll feel what your heart actually wants!
Cheer up!*
*Feel Good Hugs* :)

Sayak said...

Your post somewhat resonates with the theme of the poem Solitude by Ella Wheeler Wilcox. Almost all of us know the poem; the fist two lines at least.

It's tough to embrace solitude and be at peace with it. It's even tougher to be indifferent to emotions, but I think, once achieved, it's worth it.

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

thanks for liking it..:D im so happy hahaha..:3

Sunakshi said...

Thanks for writting your perception. :)

Unruly Rebel said...

am happy you replied to comments... :)

Sunakshi said...

namit-i'll try to do so from now onwards :)

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