Thursday, February 11, 2010

Emotional outburst

Can you smile when you are feeling extremely low?

Can you lend your ears to anything which sounds good when everything seem to be so messed up?

Can you walk in a crowded place when all you want is a long walk by yourself?

Can you feel the real-ness when you're in between dream state and awake?

Does it matter what anyone would think about you when the only thing in your mind is that someday you'll die and turn into ashes.none would have an excuse to speak shit about you then,those who hated you throughout your life,would get no one to'll be free,free from every damn thing!

My thoughts are scattered,at times i find it really difficult to collect them at one place.i am pissed inside,i don't know why?wait.may be i know,err who cares!when your existence seems to be useless,and your life is just black and white it really doesn't taste so good.i've a bad habit of getting mood swings,and it awesomely appears on face, seriously this isn't a very nice thing.and i am not proud of it either.i really can't pretend to be alright when my life amazingly offers me hard time,and i feel as if i am breathing just for the sake of surviving,nothing more than meaningless breaths.i went out with my friends few days back,it was my best friends birthday,it was supposed to be perfect for her coz she turned 18,but alas!i couldn't be present mentally  though i was there with them.ah!chemical imbalance but overall it was nice,i didn't scream or broke anything atleast. :D i wish i knew this trick of veiling up my mood swings with different colors.

I don't know why the heck life is being so damn complicated or i am making so?and you know what,from past two or three days i don't feel like scribbling in notebooks.yep,may be because i don't feel anymore,i am not making random it a nice thing?to feel nothing?um may be yes,may be helps when you are hated by majority.. and believe me this person,writing this crap is certainly hated by many. ^_^

Long post eh?

Thanks for bearing ^_^


ambiguous_angel said...

that is one unhappy post.
so many sad people this time.
oh. me too. i just cant smile right now.
i feel like crying.

but nicely written anyway.

DiDo said...

firstly m glad ur back sunakshi... :)

second... Relax girl.... its okay.. life throws hundreds of surprises at us... bt we have to face.. theres nthg we cn do about it.. Just fight it and believe that things will be alrite :)
a big huggggggg for sweet sunakshiii


To me life is how you want it to be. Oh yes I have had my dark moments but at the end of the day if one can smile to a lonely person, lend a hand to the less forunate, and count your blessings
then all is well.

Your post was so sad,I hope things improve for you if life is difficult, we all have to expereience hard times to appreciate the good times.

Take care and God bless.

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

>_< dont mind those persons who hate you coz here in blogosphere we truly love you~!! and weve missed you so much more than you can ever imagine..remember what ive said before..? you are my inspiration in making my poems better than i used to write before. you changed me and made me a writer again in some ways..

so pls. dont think like that and im sure even though you felt sad and meaningless..there is still good things that God will offer you..

just stick to the fight

and paste a smile on your face..

you're never alone :3

always here,
ayu( / ・ω・)//!!!

(P.S. if you'll reply to this comment..pls. put it in my blog's comment box so that i can update my comments :D)

(¯`•._.•[Raaji]•._.•´¯) said...

aww... you will be fine. Just take one day at time. I will begin to make sense :-)

Good luck :-)

Tiary said...

I hope all is well with you!

The Amateur Poet said...

umm.. life seems complicated.. it might not always be! :) not scribbling in notebooks..? ok. open a wordfile and try dear.. make up random rhymes.. :D putting thoughts to paper(or comp) usually healps me out! :)

Chocolate Lover said...

am feeling the same di! -__-
Hugs T.T

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

awww..thanks sunakshi :3 i really appreciate you visit my blog in spite of your busy sched. thank you so much~! x)


O, that's really sad... but never lose hopes... instead, be positive for God has prepared somethin' better for you... just have patience!!!:)

P.S. Happy valentine's day in advance!!!:)

Good day!!!:)

Keep safe!!!:)


Vittaldas Prabhu said...

I quite agree with what Yvonne has to say. She is quite experienced and has provided the right comment. My comment here might seen superfluous in comparison to hers, but I would still dare write something.

I advised this to some other blogger who also happens to be in your blog followers. I take the risk of being repetitive, but I think it is only necessary to put forth my point. Try allowing your mind to wander aimlessly. Let it dwell on good and bad things alike. Don't hinder its meandering. You will feel happy at moments and downright furious at few others, but at the end you are at peace with yourself. I do it many times. It could be a slow process but I feel it works very well. Try it and let me know if it ever worked for you.

I see what you mean when you said you feel the same way the protagonist in my latest poem (Condemned) felt. I saw your comment and I see that there are a lot of similarity in emotions that are running at both places. Take care.

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